Writing it off

 

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Sometimes life just seems to get the best of you and slaps you in your face…  Time for me to wake up and start to actually do something to make life better instead of staying frozen and letting it all just happen.  I guess it just all became a bit to much to handle. Seeing my mom struggle through life and not being able to help, losing my job & my study, having huge financial troubles, knowing the one person who really understands me completely will always be so far away…

Time now to stop thinking like that… this blogpost really just for me to read when I feel down again…

–> I can help my mom just by being there for her, supporting her, hugging her when she feels bad. That  DOES help….

–> I will find a new job and it will be better and less stressfull

–> I will find a way to finish my study no matter how long it may take me, I can do it…

–> Finances will be better when I have my new job and they give me a steady contract.

–> So many people around me who support me and love me, time to stop complaining and see what I have and not focus on what I can’t have…  I am so lucky to have such amazing people around me in life….

–> Time to stop hiding in this crazy virtual world and face life again and find back what makes me happy

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Study

Today is my free day! These are very rare to me so I usually have a million things to do when this day finally comes. Today is no difference. I need to catch up on my study so I am about to leave home for school today. I hate going to school on a free day but I can’t seem to really get myself to study the way I should when I am at home. One of my classmates is going to help me study so I won’t be alone. And honestly I need all the help I can get. I have to learn the human body inside and out and everything in latin language. Good thing the human body is actually very interesthing,I just need to find a way to relate to the material.

Well I’ll study untill lunch and then I am off into the sunshine, the weather today is amazing. I have to work all weekend and monday too so it’s basicly the only time I can spend outside. I am thinking of taking my laptop with me in the sun, as any true internet addict would do. 😉 My son is with his grandparents today and we’re all going there for dinner tonight so I don’t have to cook! Yay! 🙂 So this mean more time to actually  relax a little. I’ve been stressing out way to much lately.

The worse thing about my job/study is the amount of time I get to spend with my son. He means the world to me but unfortunately I only get to spend a couple of hours a week with him. I mean I do see him every day but I hardly get to spend actual qualitytime with him. I wish I could do this study in less hours. Next week I am hoping to pick him up from daycare early and go do something fun with him. The time we do get to spend together I try to make extra special. I have to keep in mind that this study only takes another 2 years and after that a whole world of possibilities will open up for me. I’ll be able to get a good job with better hours and better pay. And by the time I am done my son will start elementry school. So life will be less hectic by then I hope.

Last night I was talking to a friend about Venice, Italy and I can’t stopt thinking about it. I’m in need of a vacation so bad! I haven’t made any vacation plans just yet so maybe I’ll have a look and see if we can afford to go to Italy this year. I love Italy, been there a few times but never to Venice. I was actually planning a trip to Reykjavik this year but with all the vulcano activity going on there I think it can wait another year or so… 🙂 There are still so many places I’d love to travel to. When I finish this study my best friend and I are planning a trip to New York. I have never even been out of Europe so this will really be something to look forward to!  She’s in police academy right now and she has 2,5 years of study before she graduates. But when we are both done a trip to New York will be the perfect way to celebrate our diploma’s.

Well have to get back to the books now! 🙂

Inspiration

After reading a bunch of blogs from a few amazing online friends I started to miss my old blog.  Right now my life is so hectic and I think it would be a good idea for me to start blogging again to clear my mind a little.

So let me start with a  little introduction. Kaelyn Alecto is my online alter ego. She’s everything I am and everything I want to be. I’m a 26 year old mommy from The Netherlands. I work in a hospital where I follow and intern study to become a nurse. I work 36 hours a week, travel to work and back home wich takes me 2 hours a day. I live together with my boyfriend and my beautiful son. 

Because I am always busy with work, study or family I hardly have time to keep up with my friends and go out to do all the things I normally would. Like going to the gym, going to the movies, going to a club, visiting friends ect.  So whenever I am home and my son is finally asleep I turn on the computer and enter Second Life. This world for me is my way to be able to go out, have some fun, chat with friends without needed the energy to actually do these things in real life.

When I first signed up for Second Life I figured it would be a game, like Sims or Sims 2 but in Second Life you meet actual people from all over the world and some of them have become actual friends and really mean so much to me. Spending time with them and talking about my life and what’s keeping me busy really helps getting me to carry on and finish my study.

Well so much for my introduction, I am at school now typing this and my break is almost over so I have to get my nose back in the books.  I’ll try to fill you in on my online and offline adventures and struggles. Be sure to leave me a comment when you’ve actually taken the time to read my blogs. I love comments 😉